When I am awake, I would reason to myself that death is a part of life, and it is a natural thing to happen and that we have to accept it. Yet, sometimes, the emotion takes over, and it becomes difficult to bear because I miss her so, so much.
Psychologists tell us that it is alright to cry and grieve, as long as we are still in control of our emotions. Crying and grieving help us heal and come to terms with our loss.
Many have written to me saying they would miss Suki's coup de tat stories. Incidentally, I have not published her last coup de tat which happened just a few days ago because my son took the photos and it was in his hp.
This would be my last photo with Suki. I'm glad it is a happy photo.
All your messages, smses and emails have helped tremendously. Thank you so much for being with me in this difficult period.
I would like to reproduce here, to share with all of you, words of wisdom sent to me by two friends. For all of us who have lost our beloved pets (a recent one being Miko's feeder and rescuer), and for those of us who know we may have to face such inevitable losses one day, I hope these words of wisdom would help us cope better when the time comes.
This is a lovely poem sent by Wani of MDDB. It tells us to remember that relationships are not just physical but also spiritual in nature. Though we do not see our departed loved ones anymore, they are still with us in spirit.
And God asked the feline spirit
Are you ready to come home?
Oh, yes, quite so, replied the precious soul
And, as a cat, you know I am most able
To decide anything for myself.
Are you coming then? asked God.
Soon, replied the whiskered angel
But I must come slowly
For my human friends are troubled
For you see, they need me, quite certainly.
But don't they understand? Asked God
That you'll never leave them?
That your souls are intertwined. For all eternity?
That nothing is created or destroyed?
It just is....forever and ever and ever.
Eventually they will understand,
Replied the glorious cat
For I will whisper into their hearts
That I am always with them
I just am....forever and ever and ever.
And this is from my friend, Dr Tan Chek Wee, from Singapore Community Cats. His work and advice inspired me to start AnimalCare and I will always be grateful to him.
It was a "good" (quick) death for Suki and her physical pain is no more. The pain is ours of loss.
Do not regret. It brings no benefits for Suki or ourselves.
She had a good life, receiving far more loving-kindness than many sentient beings living long long lives.
The positive imprints on her consciousness will be conditions for a good rebirth and many years down the road, another "Kah Yein" will do the wonderful work of compassion for our animal sentient beings.
As I am writing this now, Bunny is sleeping right behind me, on top of Suki's cage. I think my cats are definitely taking turns to look after me. They have not left me alone all day yesterday. And of course, Bobby, as always, is beside me. Animals are so full of love and kindness - it must be inborn and they also learn from us.
Thank you, everyone, for your kindness. There is work to be done today. We have a potential adopter for Roger and Russell and I will take him for a viewing. Wendy's spiritual healing is ongoing - thank you to everyone who has offered to visit Wendy regularly this week.