I apologise for delaying this posting. I know there are many of you out there who are praying for Suki's safe return since last night's posting. But I had to inform my daughter of the news first before publishing this in the blog.
After hours of search last night, I finally discovered, from two neighbours, that Suki had probably been hit by a car yesterday evening, shortly before the rain when I was out with my son.
I had already feared the worst when I began looking for her because Indy and Cow kept sniffing on one spot on the road, about 1 1/2 houses away from mine. Then, Cow went across the road and sniffed on the grass. I already had a very uneasy feeling then.
But I wanted to keep my hopes high even though I had sensed the worst. Suki had never gone far. She had always been either inside the house or on top of my son's car in the porch. I've been locking her inside the house (closing all the windows) for 5 months to train her to stay indoors.
Then, at midnight, Ainey came by and helped me locate Suki, based on where Cow had sniffed. We found Suki.
All of us are completely devastated by this sudden loss. Suki was very precious to us, and so well-loved by everyone who knew her.
I can only console myself that being born an animal is not "fortunate" because an animal endures much suffering (even though we try to give them a comfortable life and all the love we can), and Suki's lifetime as an animal was destined to be a short one. She came back as a cat to pay her karmic dues, and it's all been paid now. She is off to a better existence where there is less suffering. The same reasoning applies to us humans too. We are also not very fortunate because we do experience suffering in various degrees. After we pay our karmic dues, we will also go on to a better existence. Life spirals upwards until we finally attain a state of everlasting peace and happiness.
Suki had a short life, but it was filled with so much love, joy and laughter. And she definitely brought us so much happiness too. People (and this includes all our furry friends) come into our lives for a reason, and we only have but moments with them. We have to make these moments happy ones because we will never know how long our lives would last. We cannot fight destiny. The universe decides.
The realisation of the impermanence of every life is precisely what makes it precious. And that is why we have to take care of moments.
I console myself now that Suki is in a better existence and she is free from pain and suffering.
Thank you, Ainey, Mandy and Yen Ling, for keeping vigil with me all night. Thank you, Ainey, for coming all the way to help me in my hour of need.
I went through shock and denial last night because it happened so unexpectedly, and can only cry my heart out now, as I write this. Crying heals. Writing heals. Knowing that there are caring friends heals.
I need some time to mourn this loss and to come to terms with it.
I will miss Suki with all my heart, but I know she is now on Rainbow Bridge with Vixey, Mac, Kimba, Pans, Puffin and Remirth. And, I will be reunited with them again soon.
In loving memory of our beloved Suki
Suki, a few months ago, when she was little and Indy was looking after her.
I have to give a talk this morning, and life has to go on. If any of you can help out with visiting Wendy and bringing her food for the next few days, please let me know. I need to keep an eye on Indy - I can see he is quite devastated too. He has been going out to that spot on the road. He takes it quite badly whenever there is death in the family.
My husband is equally devastated as well. He said I should not adopt anymore kittens because an urban housing estate is just not safe for cats and kittens. We have noticed a few fast drivers on our road too. I too decided I should not take in anymore kittens when Kimba passed away but I accepted Suki because her rescuer was really desperate at that time and no one could foster her. A cat's life is not meant to be lived out in a cage, he/she needs to roam - that is the nature of cats. They decide on their territory and they would only roam within these boundaries, but they decide, not us. Yet, urban housing estates are just not safe enough for our furry friends. And even if we live in the countryside, there would be other dangers and risks. This is reality, the nature of our life - there is suffering, and life is not perfect. We can only do the best we can.