Sunday, January 31, 2010

Suki is now on Rainbow Bridge with all my departed pets

Dear Friends,

I apologise for delaying this posting.  I know there are many of you out there who are praying for Suki's safe return since last night's posting.  But I had to inform my daughter of the news first before publishing this in the blog. 

Sunday, 6.45am

After hours of search last night, I finally discovered, from two neighbours, that Suki had probably been hit by a car yesterday evening, shortly before the rain when I was out with my son. 

I had already feared the worst when I began looking for her because Indy and Cow kept sniffing on one spot on the road, about 1 1/2 houses away from mine.  Then, Cow went across the road and sniffed on the grass.  I already had a very uneasy feeling then. 

But I wanted to keep my hopes high even though I had sensed the worst.  Suki had never gone far.  She had always been either inside the house or on top of my son's car in the porch.  I've been locking her inside the house (closing all the windows) for 5 months to train her to stay indoors.      

Then, at midnight, Ainey came by and helped me locate Suki, based on where Cow had sniffed.  We found Suki. 

All of us are completely devastated by this sudden loss.  Suki was very precious to us, and so well-loved by everyone who knew her.

I can only console myself that being born an animal is not "fortunate" because an animal endures much suffering (even though we try to give them a comfortable life and all the love we can), and Suki's lifetime as an animal was destined to be a short one.  She came back as a cat to pay her karmic dues, and it's all been paid now.  She is off to a better existence where there is less suffering.  The same reasoning applies to us humans too.  We are also not very fortunate because we do experience suffering in various degrees.  After we pay our karmic dues, we will also go on to a better existence.  Life spirals upwards until we finally attain a state of everlasting peace and happiness.  

Suki had a short life, but it was filled with so much love, joy and laughter.  And she definitely brought us so much happiness too.  People (and this includes all our furry friends) come into our lives for a reason, and we only have but moments with them.  We have to make these moments happy ones because we will never know how long our lives would last.  We cannot fight destiny.  The universe decides.

The realisation of the impermanence of every life is precisely what makes it precious.  And that is why we have to take care of moments. 

I console myself now that Suki is in a better existence and she is free from pain and suffering. 

Thank you, Ainey, Mandy and Yen Ling, for keeping vigil with me all night.  Thank you, Ainey, for coming all the way to help me in my hour of need.   

I went through shock and denial last night because it happened so unexpectedly, and can only cry my heart out now, as I write this.  Crying heals.  Writing heals.  Knowing that there are caring friends heals.     

I need some time to mourn this loss and to come to terms with it.

I will miss Suki with all my heart, but I know she is now on Rainbow Bridge with Vixey, Mac, Kimba, Pans, Puffin and Remirth.  And, I will be reunited with them again soon. 

In loving memory of our beloved Suki

Suki, a few months ago, when she was little and Indy was looking after her.  

I have to give a talk this morning, and life has to go on. If any of you can help out with visiting Wendy and bringing her food for the next few days, please let me know. I need to keep an eye on Indy - I can see he is quite devastated too.  He has been going out to that spot on the road.  He takes it quite badly whenever there is death in the family.

My husband is equally devastated as well.  He said I should not adopt anymore kittens because an urban housing estate is just not safe for cats and kittens.  We have noticed a few fast drivers on our road too.  I too decided I should not take in anymore kittens when Kimba passed away but I accepted Suki because her rescuer was really desperate at that time and no one could foster her.  A cat's life is not meant to be lived out in a cage, he/she needs to roam - that is the nature of cats.  They decide on their territory and they would only roam within these boundaries, but they decide, not us.  Yet, urban housing estates are just not safe enough for our furry friends.  And even if we live in the countryside, there would be other dangers and risks.  This is reality, the nature of our life - there is suffering, and life is not perfect.  We can only do the best we can. 


straydog said...

The Universe has decided it is time for Suki to return to her true home. While we on earth mourn the sudden loss of Suki, we can console ourselves that Suki is in a much better plane of existence than planet earth.
In time, all of us, two-legged or four-legged, have to return home too, when our time on earth is up.
We share your loss regarding Suki. Om.

Anonymous said...

rest in peace suki.....

Lois Lane said...

Stay strong, Kah Yein.

Yen Ling said...

Dr.Chan, nothing to be sorry for, for you did not do anything wrong. You gave Xiao Li @ Suki the best of everything. Thank you.

I cried and cried the whole night. Crying do help.

Yes, we console ourselves that she is in a better place now indeed. She is with grand Vixey and chatty Mac. =)

I find myself getting upset and highly emotional too of death as such, and yes telling myself no more, no more pets each time. But the cycle continues because we are here for a reason to help those who can't help themselves.

Jack is sad too. He whined when I broke him the news last night and today, he didn't touch his food and looking withdrawn. I guess animals know.

Take care. HUGS.

In loving memory of Suki, whose life is short but fulfilled.

Anonymous said...

Dear KahYein,

I share your grief on the sudden loss of Suki.

I have been following Suki's stories from the time she was a surrogate baby to Joannie to her last story posted a few days ago.

Her coup d'etat stories never failed to lift a smile in my heart. She was such a happy and playful cat.

Though her life was short, it was filled with so much love from you and your family. She couldn't have asked for a better and happier home to live in than yours.

Like many other readers of your blog, I shall miss Suki. I shall miss her good nature and I shall miss her boisterous characters.

Suki, wherever you are now, may you be well and happy.

KahYein, please take good care of yourself. Suki was a very happy cat. And I am sure she would not want to see you sad.

Mandy said...

I'm so sorry to hear about Suki's sudden departure and i know it pains you deeply now that she's not here but i know now that she's in a better place. Having you as an owner for Suki's is probably the best thing that has happened to her during her days spent on earth. Right now i can only imagined Suki having the time of her life with Vixey and Max in heaven!

My deepest heartfelt condolence goes to you and your family! Stay Strong and Take Care!

Anonymous said...

Idam me natinam hotu
sukhita hontu natayo

Idam me natinam hotu
sukhita hontu natayo

Idam me natinam hotu
sukhita hontu natayo

Anonymous said...

Hi Kah Yein, this comes as shocking news. Since I read about her disappearance last night, I eagerly anticipated your follow up blog of a happy reunion. My heartfelt condolences. I really enjoyed reading all about Suki's antics...will miss her very much.

Carolina said...

Sis. Kah Yein, I am sorry to hear this sudden matter. Yeap, you are correct. Life must go on and you must take care of yourself too, okay.

May Suki be rest in peace. May memory of Suki inspires us to be a better person.


Singapore Community Cats said...

It was a "good" (quick) death for Suki and her physical pain is no more. The pain is ours of loss.
Do not regret. It brings no benefits for Suki or ourselves.
She had a good life, receiving far more loving-kindness than many sentient beings living long long lives.
The positive imprints on her consciousness will be conditions for a good rebirth and many years down the road, another "Kah Yein" will do the wonderful work of compassion for our animal sentient beings.

Goh Seng Shya said...

I agree with Mandy. She is such an adorable cat though she cause volcano at times. I even saved on of her most cutest photo from this blog.

Sis Kah Yein, may you be well & happy soon too. As what is said, life is a cycle.

Anonymous said...

I'm so, so sorry to hear this sad outcome. I hoped and hoped that there would be a happy ending and I feel so terrible for you that it has not be so.

In your love for Suki, you have repaid your karmic debt to her. Her life with you may not have been as long as you may have wished but you gave her a good life. You shared love and companionship. Suki inspired the Animalcare logo colours and is immortalised in the Animalcare cause. It was a short life for Suki but a meaningful one for those whose life she has and will continue on to touch. Not too shabby for a cat who started life as a stray kitten who was saved from drowning several times!

Courage Kah Yein: mourn the loss of a dear friend now. Happy memories of Suki will come again.

Until then, take care.

Anonymous said...

And God asked the feline spirit
Are you ready to come home?
Oh, yes, quite so, replied the precious soul
And, as a cat, you know I am most able
To decide anything for myself.

Are you coming then? asked God.
Soon, replied the whiskered angel
But I must come slowly
For my human friends are troubled
For you see, they need me, quite certainly.

But don't they understand? Asked God
That you'll never leave them?
That your souls are intertwined. For all eternity?
That nothing is created or destroyed?
It just is....forever and ever and ever.

Eventually they will understand,
Replied the glorious cat
For I will whisper into their hearts
That I am always with them
I just am....forever and ever and ever.

Author Unknown


Anonymous said...

Rest In Peace dear Suki, now you will be happy in heaven.

karmen said...

rest in peace suki. lots of hugs to kah yein.

chen said...

Dear Kah Yein

What an awful shock! I understand your dilemma of cats safety in an urban environment, because of my 2 kitties. But its a debate of whether they should be given a chance to live a full life or a life that is safe, but behind locked doors. And so I chose to give my kitties the chance to learn and explore the world instead of locking them up. But every time they go out, I get a bit worried. And so I will always give them a big hug and wish them to be safe and happy before they go through the door.

I'll miss Suki's little adventures too.